Day 81.

I wonder if experiencing anticipation after seeing someone for the first time in a long time a human condition or if I am the only one who experiences the emotional cocktail of excitement and nervousness. As individuals grow and change, I think it is only natural for their relationships with others to grow and change. However, this sometimes means that people grow apart from one another. Sometimes the distance between them is too great for a relationship to reestablish, they form a new, different, relationship, or snap back into the old relationship they once had. I think it may be best, healthier even, to have a relationship that mixes parts from the latter two. A relationship that doesn't reflect individual growth may just become to confining and who doesn't like relying on the comforts you once felt with someone.I spent an absolutely lovely afternoon, good quality time working, playing and talking, with someone who I am so blessed to have in my life. I loved that we didn't watch a movie or do another activity where you don't have to talk, but instead talked for hours about our lives, dreams, and the things that were important to us.  It makes me giggle to think our five years of friendship, everything we have done and said, and also the years before that when we weren't friends. Apparently I was too much of a goody-tooshoo to be friends with and she was really big on her animals ( I didn't like pets.) I am so proud of my high school friends that I truly love and adore and have every intention of having in my life, being aunties, uncles, and god parents to the children who frighten me to think about at this period in my life. It pleases me beyond expression that those life changing friends I had in high school are still an important part of my life now. I imagine no matter how long I go without spending a great deal of time with them that they will always be important, if for nothing less then their effect and influence on me. They were the ones that truly began to first teach me about acceptance and accepting people for who they truly were even if that meant loving someone who was so different from me. They were the ones who got me drunk for the first time, the ones who watched me cry when my heart was broken for the first time, who taught me how to like animals and eat large quantities of ice cream and other sugary essentials, who inspired me to dream, who encouraged me to write/blog, who informed me of the musical world outside my Christian radio box, and who loved me for being me even when that meant I was toothless, high on pain killers, preachy when I oughtn't be, crazy, too serious, and strange  ole krita. Today was a new day, a day that people have grown together though not in the same ways. It was a good day.