Day 35: Remembering What Was Forgotten

Recently, I have been thinking alot about what my purpose is for doing the things I do. I've reading a book that discusses the topic and I have spent sometime talking to people like my mom about what purpose is, about hers and what she thinks my purpose should be. I of course politely disagreed with her view of my purpose, and told her that I'm not sure what my purpose is. I suppose lately I have just been doing things without much of a reason for doing them. Though I remembered having a purpose, a reason, behind all the business, I could not for the life of me remember what it was. Then, this Saturday morning, on the day I normally try to celebrate a sabbath, I decided to lug my laptop, bible, small group book, and energy drink up to the second floor common room of traer and have a nice little quiet time. I ended up creating a new Pandora station that just has worship music on it. Best Idea Ever. Anyways, one of my favorite songs came on and reminded me, helped me to remember, why I, the crazy person, do the things I do. "My purpose remains/ The art of losing myself in bringing you praise." That may seem silly...that I make the purpose in everything I do to praise God, a God not everyone believes in no less. I am kind to people, I try to make good grades, I work hard, I will and won't do certain things all to glorify God. I'm always so interested in what makes people tick, what is the most intimate reason they have, though they may never share it, for doing the things they do. Well, even though I dislike vulnerability I just shared mine.

A thousand times I've failed
Still your mercy remains
And should I stumble again
Still I'm caught in your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame

My heart and my soul, I give You control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise, become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Your will above all else, my purpose remains
The art of losing myself in bringing you praise

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame

My heart, my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out, O my soul cries out

My Soul cries out to You
My Soul cries out to You
to You, to You

My heart, my soul, Lord I give you control
Consume me from the inside out Lord
Let justice and praise become my embrace
To love You from the inside out

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out, O my soul cries out

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart is to bring You praise
From the inside out, O my soul cries out
From the inside out, O my soul cries out
From the inside out, O my soul cries out.