Day 32.

Wanna know a secret? I actually didn't write a blog yesterday. I wrote two on the same day and waited until just after midnight to post the second one so that I wouldn't have to write yesterday. Little did I know that I would actually want to write yesterday. What I wanted to write about I actually talked about instead, but without much detail or depth. You see, I have come to the realization that I live inside my head. It is a dark place that only has enough room for one person. So many thoughts pop into my head grabbing for attention, but are not important or significant enough to grab anyone else's. Part of the problem could be that I am fascinated by simple observations and thoughts that seem so wondrous and  large in the dark world of my mind, but those same thoughts are small and ordinary when they make their suicidal jump off my lips and into the nearest ear. I suppose the possibility that I only share parts of the awe-full thoughts in my head and that listeners don't share their thoughts on my thought back is still a possibility. Anything is a possibility really. This could be why I like Dr. Who so much. The Doctor and his companion, whoever it is at the time, live in a world that no one else on earth lives in or is possibly capable of living in. They experience places, villains, heroes, and ideas that no one on Earth has, and then they go back to Earth for a visit and have to try to fit back in, well at least the companions have to. No wonder Rose can't stay on Earth. No wonder Amy like the Doctor better than Rory. As isolated as their worlds are, as alone as they are in the worlds of time and space that they experience, they like it too much to ever give it up. I feel the same way about my own isolation, though I wouldn't say that it is much at all; however, I am going to try to open up a little bit more, to say more of what I am thinking. Will this be good or bad? Will it actually happen? Will I actually report back what happens honestly/ admit that I didn't open up if I for some reason choose not to? It is whatever it is.