Day 29.

In twenty years, I wonder how I will view my life at 19. Specifically, will I appreciate that I kept myself so busy trying to juggle everything, will I be disappointed I didn't rest more, or will I simply not remember what I did? This morning I was fortunate enough to eat an English muffin covered in peanut butter with sliced bananas--the product of Aaron's and my walk to Kroger yesterday. While I was sitting in the dark on my floor staring at the sunshine on the other side of my small window, I took a bite of buttery muffin and wondered if I would remember this moment. That little moment was similar to the majority of moments that I think make up life for there was nothing incredibly spectacular about it. It was a quiet, content, maybe happy, moment of time without a grand though or idea to justify recalling it in a years time. However, I enjoyed that moment regardless if it was memorable or special because it was a part of my life. It is easy no neglect appreciating those moments. I don't want to be on my death bed one wondering where my life went and why didn't I appreciate it more only to realise it consisted of moments similar to this morning and I had rushed through them yearning for whatever was next without appreciation. Well I guess I'm not yet 39, and for now I like being busy, it gives me something to do. I have a list of things I need to accomplish today and for the rest of this week. Today I have to: do laundry, write a paper proposal for my RHR class, prepare for my meeting about my presentation for the Liberal Arts Symposium, read for Core, read for Austen class, and complete my Spanish homework. See, I have already crossed three off the list. According to the calender in my phone, this week I have to: go to all of my classes, go to Greek week practice, participate in Honor Council interviews (hopefully I'll be elected!), participate in a panel for admitted students week, meet twice with Dr. Rosenthal (once for my RHR proposal and once for Symposium presentation.), go to church, another Greek week practice, attend panhellenic meeting, run to my small group, enjoy Stomp the Lawn 2011, and attend Sigma Sigma Sigma Epsilon Theta's formal 2011. wow, I kinda wish I hadn't written all of that out. You should just see that following weekend, week, and the next weekend. The loveliness of it all is that inbetween typing these sentences I have been looking at my calender and just realized that I messed up dates and over planned and sigh. Oh, well. I'm busy, can't you see? Oh, the life of a college student is for me. I am just going to have to remember to appreciate every moment as it flies by before I lose it for good.