Day 3.

Vulnerability. There are not many things that truly frighten me, that  make me want to implode and become nothing. I recently realized that being emotionally vulnerable creates this horrible feeling that I would do almost anything to prevent happening again. Honesty is required in order to be vulnerable, right? Although I try not to be a prideful person, I do pride myself in being an honest person. But if honesty creates emotional vulnerability, how honest am I with the world, especially if it is a feeling I would like to avoid at all costs? I have been thinking about vulnerability, my emotional vulnerability, lately because I just learned that I am scared of it. I was honest and in turn I felt like I opened myself up to the possibility of taken advantage of, crushed and essentially destroyed. I could not escape the anger this created. Who couldn't be angry at themselves for putting themselves in such a fragile position? Maybe that is why love and hate are so closely connected.